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Wednesday, 01 July 2009

Change blogs (maybe)

I will change blogs if my mac continues to block my internet whenever I choose to log on.

And I miss Michael Jackson.

Thursday, 11 June 2009

It's been a bad week

In addition with having two 3 hour exams on the same day, I have so many other things to deal with.

First is the accommodation in Brisbane. Yes, I am officially moving out. Not only am I freaking out about moving out, but now I am freaking out about living on the streets. The inexperienced me is relying on a friend, but that friend is a really trustworthy friend so I hope it all works out.

I also have been constantly ripped off this week. 50 bucks because I wanted to sign up for some course that would do me good but they didn't mention that it was going to be 16,000 dollars. Yep. 16,000. When I said I was no longer going to sign up and want my account removed, they said they do no refunds. Argh!

Then there is another case where my E-tag has been topped up but 2 days later, I received a letter saying that my E-tag has been blacklisted because it has no money in it. WTF. There goes 20 bucks. This is the first time I have found the Australian government to be inefficient!

And right now I'm thinking, conservation biology better be worthwhile. I don't even know why I am doing this.

Tuesday, 02 June 2009

Moving out

It's been too long. I've been busy but I have to blog about certain things for my friends to know.

To most of you that have spoken to me lately and heard me complain tirelessly about how I don't know what I want, or how I have decided and then changed my mind - I sort of know what I want now. For now.

I am going to do conservation biology with the university that Tomoko is in (we're gonna be roomies!). I know that I said the most awesome thing to do was to take my research masters followed by a phd, but I changed my mind and decided to go with something that is less, say, ambitious. Not because I am scared or anything (to those that heard about me begging professors to take me in - yes, one of them did say yes), but because I like what I do now, but I don't think I have the passion for it nor am I doing good at it. It is frustrating to feel stupid by the end of every semester because I do try really hard. So I am going to change from medical science to conservational biology. It's different, it has a little bit of research and it will give me some experience. If I like research then I will continue to do what I thought was awesome and continue with the whole phd shindig.

It's a risk because there are less jobs but I'm doing what feels right.
So by next semester, I am going to be in Brisbane. At last, I'm doing what the rest of my friends are doing - moving out.
Don't laugh. It is a big step for me and I feel nervous about it. At the same time, I feel like I'm so sick of studying but it will be a whole different experience doing it without my parents around so it's cool.

Can you tell that this blog is going to go up a level once I'm in Brisbane?

Sunday, 10 May 2009

Life of a retail worker
First up, I would like to say that I'm blessed to have this job. I have worked at McDonalds and god knows what a shithouse that place was. The workers there think that because you're a newbie, they'll give you their job and then make you do yours as well when the manager is not around. I also had someone call me in once just to clean the tables (not only the top of the tables but at the bottom as well - BITCH).

This job, I kind of like. I like the people there. Of course, understandably, the boss will be some sort of authoritive figure. I have to say though, even though he is friendly, there are times I think that he would think that I'm slacking when I'm not and tells me off even when I have justifications for my actions. It's a bit of a let down, really.

But most of the time, this is not his fault.

It's the customers fault.

It's one thing to be rude but it's another to blame me for actions I did not do. If I can't help them with something, I would call my boss because he knows the products better than I do and when he tells them the same thing I did, they say that it's my fault or that something I said to them made them confused. Why do all rude customers have some sort of pattern with their actions? They are so predictable.

Also working in a pet food shop and thought me two things:
1. There are always angry old people no matter where you go. It gets worse when they are racist and you try to explain things to them, and when they don't get it, they will spit in your face (figuratively). And for some weird reason, you can always tell which ones are the grumpy ones and which ones are not. Also, most of them think that because you work in a retail store, it means that you have stopped school in Year 10 and have no other way to earn money but to work in a pet shop full-time. Get a life, I am way better than that.
2. Girls who dress up and carry small dogs with them always think that they're the shiz. They think because they have a small dog, they can behave like Paris Hilton. If it was Paris Hilton walking through those doors, I would understand because she is rich, but these girls are obviously not as rich and obviously love it when people have to kiss their asses.
Great thing about this experience is that I know I would never want to work under someone when I finish my studies (or at least have a higher ranking). Sometimes your actions just defines who you are.

Friday, 08 May 2009

Things that I've been thinking about

I've been trying to get my head around two things. One has to do with my future and the other the same, but a little bit different.

1. Studying until I'm 25, the least.

I have decided (and it took me a very LONG time to decide) that I would be doing Masters in my uni. I thought that I would never do it. I thought that it took too long and I would never have the stamina nor the wits to do something as important/deep as this. I also never thought that I would still be studying after I turn 22 but it looks like I'm going to be studying way longer than that.

It all started when I thought of doing Masters by coursework on Conservation Biology because I could accompany my friend in Brisbane (who is sometimes having a hard time and being with her would be a bonus for both her and I) and because I am all for conserving the environment, or more importantly, endangered species. But even though I thought of doing it, the fact is that I actually had no idea what to do with my life and the idea of graduating and going into the real world freaks me out. I didn't think that I would still have to make a decision after I'm 21.

So I explored my options, and I have decided that I will do Masters. I am still looking for any researches that I would be greatly interested in and hopefully I would find it before the due date.

2. Moving houses/moving out.

My family is moving. Yes, again. I will mass e-mail the 'familee' as soon as I move so don't worry, you know I love you guys too much. I don't like moving. I like unpacking though because I get to rearrange the room the way I want it to all over again, but it's tiring, my exams are coming and I really don't have time for this. Plus, the previous owners are always trying to delay the move.

I have packed all my essentials (books, clothes etc.) and so I am now left with a couple of T-shirts and jeans, and my uni books to survive. I am also sleeping on the ground. My cat got so confused to where the bed went that she hid away from the mattress to under my keyboard and refused to sleep on the mattress even though it's the same one she sleeps on every day.

Also, I'm thinking about moving out when doing my masters. Closer to uni, because it takes me an hour just to get there! Either that, OR I WANT A FREAKIN' JEEP YO!

That's enough ranting for a day.

Happy birthday, Matty. I love that you're a true friend, more than anyone else I know